The Dead & Color White:

My first experience with Death was when my youngest sister passed away. She was just over a month old.  My mother named her Gayatri. I was 7 years old then. She died mysteriously while she was asleep. My mom realized Gayatri was not breathing and Gayatri’s body was cold and stiff and blue when she picked her for feeding.  I don’t remember much of the incident. But I vaguely remember the commotion, the cry, the people, the mornings, the flowers.

I guess the realization dawned on me when I saw she was wrapped in white and taken away. She looked like a small doll being wrapped and veiled 

My father passed away in 2008; August 31^st 2008 to be precise. He left while he was being operated. The last I saw him was at the mortuary. Again wrapped in white, cold and stiff and a distinct smell. It felt like Death has its own odor. I collected my Fathers remains from the hospital and drove with him along with my mother in the ambulance to the cremation ground.

Hemavati a.k.a. Hema, left us on 3^rd of June’16. She was diagnosed with Cancer in 2005 and then Short Bowel Syndrome since 2014.  We called her “Akka”.I have been with her very close since the last couple of year; especially during her Short Bowel condition. I shared a strange connection with her.  She was never a very expressive one, but yet I could sense and understand what she was going through and what she needed and meant at most times.

I was constantly by her side for the last 3 days of her hospitalization. The last thing she spoke was, “just be with me.” A strange feeling of emptiness and sudden lose arose in me just few minutes ago she left; I was waiting outside he ICCU and insisted the security staff to allow me to see. He very understandingly allowed me to go in. I watched my sister and saw the heart rate monitor slowed down in front of my eyes; and then the flock of doctors engaging in CPR, but all in vain. And that was it.

Again the WHITE….plain, blank, spotless White, wrapped around.

Death has its own distinct face…its own color of despair…. its own odor of lose, own feeling of emptiness.  White for me has now become synonymous to Death. People generally are vary of the color black; due to its synonymy and association with Darkness, but White is gloomy, spotless and so it reveals all the darkness, all things negative, all that is not acceptable.

I have a strange fear: Phobia & Fear

” I have this strange fear. I generally wake up paranoid with this dream. It’s the same dream that I see.”

I also fear sleeping alone and I can never sleep with lights off. I really don’t understand this. I have tried many things to calm my self but I am unable to get rid of this strange fear.

Actual Transcript from a hypnotherapy session: "I am feeling the same strange fear. I can feel my body becoming warm and fearful. I see myself in corner of my mothers womb. I hear my mother and father fighting. My father is hitting my mother. He says he doesn’t want this baby. He is forcing my mother to go and abort the child.

I also see my father dragging my mother to a hospital. Looks like a small clinic. They are taking my mother inside. I guess it’s a operation theatre. I see the big orange shining light above her. This is the same light I see in my dream. I feel this is the same light, which chases me, and then I wake up paranoid. 

I see my mother some how convinces the lady doctor to tell my father that she cant go ahead with the abortion or it will be death scare for my mother".

Many a time clients come with a strange fear and phobia. Most fear are traced to their childhood. It very important to heal the fear and neutralize the trauma and negative triggers related to the fear. Or I have seen people live their whole life with fear.

Hypnotherapy is a great tool to help people to eradicate fear and live a fearless life. Age regression is a very powerful technique used under hypnotherapy. Most psychologist and psychotherapist believe 70% of people issues can be traced back to their childhood.

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Just a Thought

All the gurus, masters, all awakened ones’ have spoken about ONENESS, and many of us (seekers) too believe in it, but how many of us have truly experienced oneness in totality…Does Oneness truly exists or is it again an illusionary concept…because separation is definitely illusionary to me.

Though Oneness prevails, then what really causes the division, the disconnect, the separation, the I-ness, the Me-ness???

The reasons behind me writing this, a thought lingering within, since a few days; there are only two kinds of being in existence. One who is love, chooses to love, operates from love, love being in love. The other kind of being is Control, who chooses to control, operates from control, love being in control. The whole of existence is all about the division between beings, who are either in Love or in Control. All the chaos which we see in the world is again illusionary. I mean illusionary, because we think somebody else is responsible for all the wars and destruction on Earth. But the fact is, you and me are responsible for all these. It isn’t about people, and human, but definitely beyond that. It’s the difference in our consciousness. Most of us, I feel aren’t able to experience Oneness, as we consciously or unconsciously choose Control over Love.

You and me can eliminate the Separation and illumine the Oneness. Just by choosing to operate from supreme level of consciousness which is LOVE . Its all about making a conscious choice of being in love, all the time, every moment of our existence.

Because….. “ Only love is real”… and Love is the way to LOVE…

Loads of Loovvvee to all…
Lakshmi

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Random Divinity!

It was a routine drive from my hotel in Bangalore to the airport. Generally, I take a cab (mostly a ola or meru, depending which is available) for a drop to the airport.

A Monday evening, the usual office rush and maddening traffic on the roads. Cabbie who came to pick me looked absolutely simple and normal like most other cab driver. He wore a skull cap, which made me realize that he was a Muslim (nor that I care much about one’s religion). He greeted me politely in basic simple English… “Mam Good evening, I am starting the meter now… and we started the journey to the airport together. As most Meru cabs donot have Fm radio, so most part of the journey was quiet with no music except some random calls and smses popping in and out on both our phones.

I randomly at times overheard him speak to his fellas and yet everytime he respectfully greeted all of them, “Salaam Walaikum.” Though it sounded sweet to me, unlike our regular “HELLO” or rather “HA- LO.”

So we continued on our journey, he skillfully maneuvering the steering wheel and making his way towards our destination. Me too by then had finished returning all the missed calls and messages, quietly watching the busy day pass by and the passersby through the rear window. My cab driver, Shahnawaz Yusuf Hussain, broke the silence and asked me, “ Mam can we halt for 5 minutes, Inshallah 8 bajey ke pehley hum pauhanch jayengey. I responded, “ OK. But Why?”

He very softly responded, “Namaaz Padhni hai.” I instantly responded’ “Please, Sure” ~

……….“by all means”(in my mind to myself)

After crossing a few meters, he stopped the car, parking light on, got of the car with his prayer mat. He found a clear spot on the adjacent footpath, next to our parked car. I was intrigued as to how and where would he offer his Prayers. I watched him through the window, still intrigued and curious. He spread the mat and began offering his prayer…. totally devoted, unperturbed by the noise, unruffled by the people, unflustered by the surrounding…. they all seemed inexistent to him.

His head turning from side to side, and randomly blowing over his shoulders. His mouth constantly moving, may be chanting a prayer. At times, covering his face with his palm. After about 10mins or so he came back inside the car and the first thing he uttered was “Thank you Mam”. I said, No problem!

The rest of the journey seemed still, yet serene; quiet yet intense for me. I realized in the moment how strongly in one devoted & dedicated to one’s GOD. And so much gratitude and genuineness in his two words “ Thankyou Mam.”

These are the times that pushes you to think how strong is your love and devotion to your GOD! These are the times which questions your faith in HIM. Yet these are the moments when one experiences divinity…divinity in people…divinity through people. Pure simplicity!

7.45 pm, and I reach the airport, well ahead of my check in time; we said our thankyous and goodbyes in our own ways.

Though we left on our own ways, the experience never left me. It brought me tears, and the whole act yet strengthened my faith in GOD, gave me one another reason to love HIM more than always.

Dear GOD,

I Love you. Thankyou for everything!